AyyuB’s journey of LiFe

Ouch! My hamstring suddenly got cramped as i started this entry! Haha… Had one of those wonderful days that i used to enjoyed regularly in my teens: Scoring a Hat-trick. Strange as it really is, i played as a defensive midfielder and managed to get my 1st Hat-trick in almost 2 years! My biggest critic in football is probably myself and Baby now but it has been bugging me for some time now because i do have a decent scoring rate all my life. For almost 2 years, i played footie and whenever i score, it’s always one goal or a brace(2 goals) at most. Last month, Baby had a conversation about this and she mentioned that i always get substituted or took it too easy after scoring 2 goals in a match. I found that quite true but it didnt bother me at all because i always believe in my abilities and perhaps i am not as selfish as the striker i was in the past. However, the Hat-trick today has a very different yet special meaning to me. Firstly, all the 3 goals are dedicated to Baby who has been pondering about my scoring rate lately. But what really made me happy was seeing that glowing face of hers and with that, i knew how much i really make her day. Although i scored 3, i was really pleased with the rest of the players like Im, Hans, Ming, Shim, Kiran, Chee Hui, Ismadi and others because they simply gave their everything in the game just now. It felt almost like being in a war while playing in the 2nd half, as most of us were really shouting our heads off and urging one another to push ourselves to the edge of our energy levels. The main reason of the shoutings were because of one simple reason: the desire to win! It was just a friendly against a young competent and determined side. I remember very well their reactions after they managed to bring the scores level at 4-4! They were celebrating together wildly as though they have won the World Cup! But seeing them celebrating didnt put JAWS out, it brought out a piece of magic from Ming to get a penalty late in the game! Suddenly, JAWS were playing and constantly communicating actively again. I was stunned to be frank because that is exactly how much winning a social match means to the players! Respect for the lads and also i like to mention Baby, Haz, Darryl and the rest who came to watch JAWS in action. The whole experience with such comrades are worth more than a personal Hat-trick of mine. It means much more to me because i am able to share those moments with people i love!

Last Thursday, Baby and me went to watch ”I Love You Man!” and ”Transformers II” @ GV Plaza Singapura. We are going to watch ”Transformers II” again! tomorrow and i really think that the movie is a blast! Not JUST because of having Megan Fox running in slow motion most of the time, but also because of a better storyline! Having more robots this time round was really cool for people like me who grew up watching ”Transformers” cartoon! I am sure that i will be getting the Blue-ray for this movie in future because of its superior audio and visual effects!

Come Monday, Baby will be starting her new job@ SMRT. Honestly, i am feeling very excited and thrilled for her. She has always been such a wonderful other half of mine these 6years and coming 6 months. Looking back the years, i have seen her grow as a person and seems to be discovering her interests and hidden talents like taking awesome pictures. True is, the very first time i talked to her, i knew back then that she has immense potential to be a great wife and mother. As a person, she’s incredibly funny and loves to spend her time with her loved ones. More importantly, she’s smart and she is able to prioritise her life elements. Most of the time, she often underestimates herself. I hope to provide the best emotional and physical support for her and will spur her on to achieve our dreams in future. As i will be studying hard, she will be working hard to make ends meet. I just feel that we are about to embark on yet another new cycle together and God Willing, we will continue to treasure each other and overcome these obstacles like we always do. We might not be the best couple in the world, but we are just perfect for each other! Love you dear and whenever you fall, i will always be there to catch up and bring you back to your feet!

YuBz ReViVeD!

I haven been updating my personal blog lately and now i am on study week until my exams. Thank God that all my assignments are done for the current semester but i need to start studying as soon as i can. I was thinking of what shall i choose for the heading of this entry and i recalled one of my buddy telling me some comment about my MSN nick since the Messenger exist way way back. YUBZ REVIVED! has been my nick since long time ago, as it was chosen because it is supposed to reflect my personality and character. Word got around and it came to my knowledge of people actually speculating about my ‘YubZ Revival’ nickname. To be honest, i laughed off those suggestions when i heard that people intepret it as me trying to form JAWS S.C. in order to prove a point to my previous social team. If those comments were made, then so be it. That issue is a little bit long overdue, dont some of you guys think? For a month of soreness about how players left the team should be enough for grown up adults to get over these issues. Whatever it is, it is impossible to stop people from making such judgements about me or my personality. However, i do appreciate those who have took the effort to put aside those egos and have a decent conversation with me. I really appreciate such sincerity to value friendships.

So why did i choose the word revived? Because i absolutely love making great comebacks. In life, there are countless challenges to take and what matters is how i choose to bounce back right up. I do have a strong fighting spirit and i relish taking challenges in order to improve myself in no matter what i do. While i was in my teens, almost everything i did was based quite selfishly to what i wanted. Now however, i realise that it’s important for me to set a good example to the younger people and to be of proper guidance to them too. For all the leadership that people have noticed about me, it’s strange for me that the biggest doubter is myself. At times, i do lack the self esteem to lead at times. In fact, i tend to choose who or when to lead nowadays. Critics will be opportunities to improve my weaknesses and i really welcome honest feedbacks from anyone. I am always keen to learn from the better leaders and i aim to be one of the best if that’s within my capabilities.

Lately, several of my closed ones encountered problems in their lives. I am very proud that he is able to realise being what is wrong and what is right. Given the emotional genes we shared, i can understand how difficult it is to control those strong tensions. But again, i am proud that he was able to take it to his throat although he feel afraid and lost in those situations. Thank God for allowing me to be of some help to him and certainly i hope that it make things easier for him to recover(or revive!). The other guy has encounter a number of issues and i am sad that i may not be of much help. I tried to be there for him and gave him advices to cope with things and i get that feeling that he’s just in denial that he has totally let go of the bad things that happened. It is a very complex situation for him and i will continue to help whenever i can.

What i love about JAWS S.C. is their sheer determination to achieve the best result that they can. Although we suffered our biggest defeat last game, i saw so so many of them feeling sad and angry with the outcome. These players came to win the game every Sunday and they have earned my respect for such positive attitude. Of course, we cant win all the time as we meet teams of different quality but the crucial factor was the attitude of a sportman. No sportman will compete to lose, if doing so, what’s the point in competing. However, defeats are the best opportunity to learn about our own weaknesses and the next step is to do something about it. As for the new set of JOMA jerseys, JAWS have 28 players who have ordered it. If anyone asked me that how many players do i expect to have when i manage my own team, i would have said 15 or 17 at most. But to have almost 28 plus many more who have heard about us and asked to join us, this is quite beyond my wildest dream. Of all of the 28 players, i really feel grateful and believe that these are the type of sportmen that are suited for the team. For a good beginning, comes with high expectations which i will have to work harder to maintain the same kind of standard to keep the players in the team. However this time around, i am fortunate to have people that kindly offered me their assistance.

Lastly, i miss Baby a lot and i cant wait to date her to watch ‘Angels and Demons’ later in the day!