YuBz ReViVeD!
I haven been updating my personal blog lately and now i am on study week until my exams. Thank God that all my assignments are done for the current semester but i need to start studying as soon as i can. I was thinking of what shall i choose for the heading of this entry and i recalled one of my buddy telling me some comment about my MSN nick since the Messenger exist way way back. YUBZ REVIVED! has been my nick since long time ago, as it was chosen because it is supposed to reflect my personality and character. Word got around and it came to my knowledge of people actually speculating about my ‘YubZ Revival’ nickname. To be honest, i laughed off those suggestions when i heard that people intepret it as me trying to form JAWS S.C. in order to prove a point to my previous social team. If those comments were made, then so be it. That issue is a little bit long overdue, dont some of you guys think? For a month of soreness about how players left the team should be enough for grown up adults to get over these issues. Whatever it is, it is impossible to stop people from making such judgements about me or my personality. However, i do appreciate those who have took the effort to put aside those egos and have a decent conversation with me. I really appreciate such sincerity to value friendships.
So why did i choose the word revived? Because i absolutely love making great comebacks. In life, there are countless challenges to take and what matters is how i choose to bounce back right up. I do have a strong fighting spirit and i relish taking challenges in order to improve myself in no matter what i do. While i was in my teens, almost everything i did was based quite selfishly to what i wanted. Now however, i realise that it’s important for me to set a good example to the younger people and to be of proper guidance to them too. For all the leadership that people have noticed about me, it’s strange for me that the biggest doubter is myself. At times, i do lack the self esteem to lead at times. In fact, i tend to choose who or when to lead nowadays. Critics will be opportunities to improve my weaknesses and i really welcome honest feedbacks from anyone. I am always keen to learn from the better leaders and i aim to be one of the best if that’s within my capabilities.
Lately, several of my closed ones encountered problems in their lives. I am very proud that he is able to realise being what is wrong and what is right. Given the emotional genes we shared, i can understand how difficult it is to control those strong tensions. But again, i am proud that he was able to take it to his throat although he feel afraid and lost in those situations. Thank God for allowing me to be of some help to him and certainly i hope that it make things easier for him to recover(or revive!). The other guy has encounter a number of issues and i am sad that i may not be of much help. I tried to be there for him and gave him advices to cope with things and i get that feeling that he’s just in denial that he has totally let go of the bad things that happened. It is a very complex situation for him and i will continue to help whenever i can.
What i love about JAWS S.C. is their sheer determination to achieve the best result that they can. Although we suffered our biggest defeat last game, i saw so so many of them feeling sad and angry with the outcome. These players came to win the game every Sunday and they have earned my respect for such positive attitude. Of course, we cant win all the time as we meet teams of different quality but the crucial factor was the attitude of a sportman. No sportman will compete to lose, if doing so, what’s the point in competing. However, defeats are the best opportunity to learn about our own weaknesses and the next step is to do something about it. As for the new set of JOMA jerseys, JAWS have 28 players who have ordered it. If anyone asked me that how many players do i expect to have when i manage my own team, i would have said 15 or 17 at most. But to have almost 28 plus many more who have heard about us and asked to join us, this is quite beyond my wildest dream. Of all of the 28 players, i really feel grateful and believe that these are the type of sportmen that are suited for the team. For a good beginning, comes with high expectations which i will have to work harder to maintain the same kind of standard to keep the players in the team. However this time around, i am fortunate to have people that kindly offered me their assistance.
Lastly, i miss Baby a lot and i cant wait to date her to watch ‘Angels and Demons’ later in the day!
